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I wish ...

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 04:37:21 GMT

I wish....I can lose 10 kilo
I wish....I can focus on finishing my mountain of assignments
I wish....I can graduate by the end of this year
I wish....I can find someone I really love
I wish....I can play the piano
I wish....I can be happy every single day
I wish....I had an elder sister
I wish... LiverpoolFC would win the EPL crown this season
I wish....My family and friends be healthy and happy always
I wish....All my wish will come true ^^ (probably not an elder sister maybe ....kinda impossible)

A special day .....

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 15:26:33 GMT

Happy Birthday To me

Prison Break

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 10:39:09 GMT

A must watch series for anyone
Anyway exams in 7 hours time
LAST paper !!
Good Luck MEEEE

Tribute to The Rock

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 09:18:42 GMT

Trailer blazing
Eye-brow raising
Heart stomping
Pie eating
Trash talking
Elbow droping
People's Champion
The Rock!!!

Month of November

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 07:54:37 GMT

Just to let all my blog readers know that I am still alive, and very much still in one piece,
Ive decided to post something on this blog that has been long outdated..

It is going to be November tomorrow,
A month that will always remind me of my birthday, (23rd !!!) *hint* *hint*
But i know the23rd of this month is gonna be something different,
Because it is gonna be a checkpoint in life,
A 20 year old checkpoint,
A point in life, where you step out from your teenage life,
And grow up to become a responsible adult.

10th of this month is the first day of my final examination,
Studying mood has been going on and off
I found out that the motivation to study comes from the people around me,
I just need that environment where there is full of competition,
This kinda environment would really turn on my studying spirit.

25th of this month is the day when i can finally fly back to home,
Never knew i missed home so much,
Humans are like that, we never appreciate things when they are close to us,
When its gone, then we know how we cant live without it.
So, people, treasure the things around you !

Shoutout to every1 in NewC

GAnbateh every1 !!
This is going to be the last few weeks here in newcastle.
Work hard and never give up !
No matter how much more you have to study,
Just remember that Im left behind as much as you do..
No matter what the end result might be ..
You wont feel regret..
Because you have given your very best ..
GooD LuckZZZ !!!

Post winter confession

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 06:36:14 GMT

Ive learnt to miss the sun ...and i almost forgot what it feels like to have my whole body sweat just by walking under the sun
The worst thing that happened during winter was the urge to keep eating ..which resulted in me putting on 10 big fat kilos
The amount of time I spend in shower is 3 times longer than I normally do ...The feeling of hot water pouring down just feels SUPERB
Like an enzyme, I was super inactive in the cold temparature ..a.k.a being lazy...not normal lazy ...but EXTRA lazy as Im already normally lazy
Cant get anywhere without putting on 2-3 layers of clothes....
Every1 looks the same everytime you meet them ...cuz they are wearing the particular jacket/windbreaker
"Beautiful sceneries" are not available during winter...get what i mean?
The heater becomes a significantly important item ....therefore if dun have means ..DIE
With 1 heater ,

it can keep you warm and comfortable

With 2 heater ,

you can DRY clothes !!! LOL

I consider twice before deciding if I shud eat ice cream during winter
I visit the toilet more often during winter and luckily its just next to my room ...

This dude goes to toilet so often he couldnt be bothered to shut the door

Lastly, winter in newcastle is boring ..cuz theres no snow .LOL

Can You See Me ?

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 14:44:31 GMT

r> <

Why ? why ??
Why only him ??
You seem to be head and toes over him,

Oh yes ...hes good ..no doubt
But what about me ????
Have you noticed ??
I may not be him ..or anywhere near him
Because im not him

But do you know what im like ?
Why is it time after time
People dun look inside ???
Theres something inside me ..wishing to be found ...
Wishing to be appreciated

Acting strong..when im just weak
Showering myself with hopes that one day
You will look
And discover
One day when you will see who i really am

Life is like that, there are always some people who will gain extra attention, Depends on how u look maybe ,
or how smart you are, or even how rich you are.

It is a little shallow isnt it, we as humans do not look directly into another humans soul, but rather we consider things covering the soul. I wouldnt deny that im a little like this myself too but

There are always things we are going to miss in life
Like we wont be able to see it,
Because we are blinded
And we pursue perfection,
Ignoring things with the slightest 'kecacatan'

But what we miss now,
Is what we might greatly lose....

An Emotion

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 16:34:37 GMT

What are you ??
Why do you seem to appear everytime im in the mood ??
Why do you one time after another block my path ??
Taking away my light, my hope and my dreams...

why ...wHY??

Why are you making me so miserable,
Would you dissapear if i beg you ??
Oh, just how i wish i could live my life without you
When nothing to be worried,
When consequences no longer a factor
When i can finally become my true self,
And express my feelings and emotions freely

I hate this feeling. This feeling of whether to do or not to do. I know what I want and I know how I feel but I just cant do it. Why is that ? Chance after chance appears and yet Im still waiting, and deciding.

"Should I really ?" ...and the

"What If"....

I hope i dun have to think of the future and the consequence of all my actions, I feel like doing what I think is right. I dun wanna plan what i wanna do .. i dun wanna be tied... i dun wan the future mapped out ...i wan to live through it...todays decision, make today...tomorrows problem, settle tommorow

Sometimes i just wish i could do things just the way i think of it. I feel like expressing myself regardless of what other people might think, or whatever the consequence might be. I'm just not ready. I guess that I really do mind what people think of me. In my mind i have always created an image of myself that would fit into other people..adjusting myself like and induced-fit enzyme...when my true self is just being masked by a mere imitation.

Hmm...thats just what im feelin at the moment ...life is simple indeed ...but I'm just complicating it

One Man Band

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 09:21:05 GMT

make sure u finish wathcing it ..very funny LOLZ

A bad Hair Day

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 04:08:59 GMT

It all started by waking up late on a sunny Tuesday morning, missing yet another lecture. Sometimes i really doubt the strength of my will power. At the start of this sem, I was so determined to go for every lecture . Somehow the thought of it seems miles away from me now.

Anyway, no time to look back, as Microbial lab is just an hour to go. Took a quick wash up, and bath. If the winter season had changed me at all, it would be the time i spend in the shower as i just refuse to get out of the hot water. Finally when i came out of it, half an hour to go for lab, and i havent even printed out the lab manual which should have been done yesterday if it wasnt because of the rushing of report.

Without taking a bite of food or a sip of water, i quickly dashed out of the house to the bus stop thinking i might just get a hot dog from pinkies. And this is when shit starts to happen. The bus which usually comes early came like 10 minutes late! Reached uni and theres like only 5 minutes before lab starts. Cancelled plan of going to pinkies and rushed to the library to print the lab manuals just to find out that only 1 printer was working. Oh, in case u dont know, printers in the library will go malfunction when someone needs printing in a rush! The last time when i need to print something urgently, the whole printer got jammed and papers were all stuck inside. Waited 15 minutes before my lab manual was printed. Now im definetely late, reached the lab and missed half of the briefing.

Things only got worse from here as something seriously embarassing happened later. Being in an already bad mood, i did things rather hurriedly and unorganised in the lab. While i was preparing my slides with my head bent down, i smelt some burnt smell and saw the bunsen burner right waving at me. Thats when i realised and... ARGHHHHHHH MY HAIRR !!my hair was on FIRE ! ..quickly blanket my hair with my hands and i can already feel that my hair has turned into ashes...sudah HANGUS!!..omgwtfbbq...what a bad day...And it seems like the burnt smell toxicated the whole lab as soon i can hear laughter and giggles all around me...sigh...i just pretended and acted normal and make it less embarassing. Even the lecturer has a pop and came straight to my bench to laugh at me !! grr

Old lady of BAD luck must have been looking at me that day..lol .....

Speaking about luck,

This is the Luckiest guy in Newcastle Uni (the one on the left)